WHY?! I felt i have been trying to please all my LIFE. Most of the time when tts a quarrel or wat, i'm the 1st to apologize, why, becoz i cherish wat i hav and dun wanna lose it jus becoz of trivial stuffs. At work, i try to be Mr.Nice GUy, maintaining the smile all the time, offering help whenever possible. With frens, i always try to accomodate, saying ok to everything as long as all are happy. With family, i'm beginning to talk more to my elder sis, talking more to mama bout work, future, wife, everything under sun except some 不能说的秘密. I even talk to my sisters boyfrens, soccer, chicks, money, stil except some 不能说的秘密. Tis CNY if i dun take initiative to talk to my cousin, i didn't even noe tt she's in Uni orady! Damn! My newphew has grown taller than me, but look like some 五五六六 shithead now. I used to be very a 内向的人, very dull, very afraid of rejection, but as life go on, i noe tt if i dun open up, the loser will be myself. It's very easy to irritate ppl and make dem hate u, but to make ppl like u, sometimes u jus cant present the real u, u hav to 配合. Sometimes in my mind i jus felt like giving tt fellow a punch in the fuking punani face, but der's a consequence i cant bear. So i jus take a deep breath and stayed calm. As you get older, u become more law conscious, coz when the day u end up in some place cutting grass, having free meals n lodging but being treated like shit, u noe life will be at e extreme. I'm orady in a rather bad situation recently, stil all tis crap shits come. Sometimes i really dunno myself anymore, i dun wanna be me. I keep telling myself tis are jus some minor setbacks(yeah, like REAL, my LAN ah!). So tired, i'll jus start afresh once i got e citizenship, debts, work, all settled out. Thx for viewing tis shit i wrote here, actually it's only about e pass few days bout the 24yrs of my life. Another gd news i like to share, 我跟你讲..........i'm a 专业的 LiFeGuaRd now ladies n gentlemen. Break away from the unhappy past and live life without having regrets. As long as you're happy, how long u live doesn't matter. So i hope to exchange 10yrs of my life to strike TOTO or 4D, for only 1st prize of coz, knn later strike but only win $10 hong kan ar, like tt 10yrs gone very chor. One more crap, if go back in time for ONCE in any part of your life, which will YOU choose?!! We'll talk bout tis nxt time...............................................................haha don't be pubo, tis a shit topic, i talk something fun soon. Cheers! 明天会更好!
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